There are some days in our lives when we are more introspective than we are on other days. For me, today proved to be one such day.
It has been four months since we moved out of India. I spend a lot of time here, alone, thinking of endless possibilities, both positive and negative. Some excite me and some shake me up.
The other day, as we were preparing for a hike, my eyes fell on a packet of m&m’s we had in our refrigerator. I looked at those colourful, tiny, chocolate buttons. They looked so inviting. I picked a blue coloured one and put it into my mouth. Next, I ate a red one followed by one of each colour. Then, I looked at my hand. It had all the colours of all the m&m’s I had eaten. They had left a mark on my hand which obviously was the food colour that had been used to make them bright and colourful. But, they all tasted the same. My philosophical mind was, by then, working overtime.
Today, a thought pricked me – Do the m&m’s define who I am? I think the answer is a yes. I will explain how. Considering the whole packet of m&m’s to be “me”, the different coloured buttons have been “the different roles” I have played in my life – the role of being a daughter, a student, a employee, a wife, etc. I have donned different hats to cater to everyone’s needs. I have left my mark in every role I have played till now. But, like the candies, my core essence remains the same – my soul is what defines me and gives me the unique flavour of being me.
I now know who I am and I now feel peaceful.
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